Realize

Today on the ride home after PBC's benefit concert, Cheryne made a comment to me that was pretty earthshaking. "I think its cute how all the freshmen look up to you & mike." i was kinda surprised because i dont see myself as a role model but after talking with cheryne, i realized i am. So me and mike were being cute and flirting and wrestling and after we did it for a while, the freshmen pbc boys begin to do it as well. cheryne pointed out to me that they are always watching me and often imitate me. The realization of the fact that I am what they aspire to be made me smile like :D because its nice to be looked up to but i also realize that i have now shouldered a large responsibility.

How i live my life can affect them, either in a good way or a bad way. It can either be since its ok for peter to _____ then so can i. OR it can be wow peter lives a life i want to live. I personally have been affected by role models negatively. As a freshman and sophmore i had many many older friends and even though i really liked them, the choices they made werent great and i ended up doing things just to be like them.

I really like this blogging thing cuz one thing can lead to another. Now that i think about it, i am my little brother's largest influence in life. Everything i do, he wants to do and at first it was annoying as heck but now i realize it is because he looks up to me and this makes me want to live a life that i am able to be proud of. I place myself in andrew's (my bro) shoes and think :if i had an older brother, how would i want him to be like?

I've finally come to realize the choices i make in life affect a multitude of people and i hope that i can leave a lasting positive impact on your life.